I'm scared to go to sleep tonight. There. I said it.
For the past year and a half of my life, I've headed upstairs at 9am. Once I got upstairs, I either greeted Markelle in the kitchen and had breakfast with her or I checked on her in her room. For the past month, things haven't been normal. We've had family visiting, I took a trip to NH and this week the girls have been on vacation. Tomorrow things are supposed to go back to normal. Honestly, nothing about my life in Joplin will be normal without Markelle. When I go upstairs tomorrow, she's not going to be there, Chris will be at work and the girls will be at school. I'm going to have to begin the process of finding a new normal.
I assume that it's going to take a lot of time. Everything about this house and my daily tasks remind me of her.
One thing I know for certain, God's Spirit and grace is available to me 24/7 and He'll be walking with me up those stairs and every step of the way.
"Blessed assurance, Jesus is mine. This is my story, this is my song, praising my Savior all the day long." Let it be!
Dear Abby Baker,
ReplyDeleteGreetings in the most precious name of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. So good to know you through you profile on the Blogger. I am impressed by your thought and experience of having peace in the present and hope for the future and your dreams of living cross-culturally and Jesus capturing your heart and ordaining your days. And Jesus being worthy of your life.This all show your confidence in the Lord determination to live your life for the Lord. I have been in the Pastoral ministry for last 33yrs and the greatest satisfaction I have in my ministry is leading young people to surrender their lives to the Lord and knowing His will for their lives because of which there are several young people from my small church in Mumbai have been in the full time ministry.
Well I wanted to invite you to come to Mumbai to work with us in the slums of Mumbai to bring healing to the broken hearted and setting free poorest of poor people in the slums from the bondage of sin and poverty and giving them new hope, better future and purpose in their lives.Mumbai is a biggest city and your dream of living cross culturally in one of the biggest city in the world not the States but in India would be life changing experience. Mumbai is a city of great contrast where richest of rich and the poorest of poor live with 18 million population (including neighboring suburbs) of which half of the population lives in the slums and those who live in the slums are people who are poverty stricken, marginalized and socially, politically and economically oppressed. We reach out to such people with the love of Christ. I would love to get in touch with you and share more about our ministry in the city of MUMBAI. My email id is and my name is Diwakar Wankhede
Abby, just a minute back I have posted a comment on your blog and I would appreciate if those comments are sent on my dhwankhede@gmail account.your confession is great under the title " Not settling for this world. Diwakar Wankhede a Pastor from Mumbai, India
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